at times i feel like the word "love" has been tainted by this country's interesting view on life. why is it so hard for me to show it? why is it so hard for me to see it in people? this isnt me expressing myself on what i called a relationship, its just an insight into what drives us to be good to one another. is love all we really need? was paul lying to me? lol idk but i do know that there is a hand full of you out there that can be called lovers. and i dont know how you do it. i show love to people in my way but your not seeing it? should i try harder or try different methods? but if i do then that wouldnt be me. so where do we go from there? can i one day find one that will cry so i can drink the tears from her eyes? i dont think its possible. the funny thing is that i like to stay optimistic. but i am a realist...maybe my expectations are too high. has my soul been scared to deep to let anything except melodies and notes in? i think so. i got a lot of work to do people. i love all of you but i hate what you call "love". its deceiving and heartbreaking. i wish the opportunities would show themselves more. why has her "love" caused depression? why is depression driving me to find more when "love" it self is what got me here? notice the quotation marks. love and "love" are two completely different things. still cant tell the difference though. weakness #1.
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