flakes

people that flake suck!
thats all i want to say about it.

the heart of life

the heart of life. first of all is a beautiful song, one of my favorites. from the lyrics to the composition, it is a masterpiece. but what exactly is the "heart of life". is it fait or destiny? i tend to see that life tends to equal out. not trying to lean towards karma but it is very similar. so far life has just worked out. right now things are bad but im sure it will work out in the end. i dont have faith in this song but in God. God is the heart of life. the heart of life is good, and just. and that is what im leaning on. i really hope i'm right on this one. but this song inspires me to keep going and to just chill. john mayer is amazing. good thing i taught him to play guitar. lol

Weakness #1=love

at times i feel like the word "love" has been tainted by this country's interesting view on life. why is it so hard for me to show it? why is it so hard for me to see it in people? this isnt me expressing myself on what i called a relationship, its just an insight into what drives us to be good to one another. is love all we really need? was paul lying to me? lol idk but i do know that there is a hand full of you out there that can be called lovers. and i dont know how you do it. i show love to people in my way but your not seeing it? should i try harder or try different methods? but if i do then that wouldnt be me. so where do we go from there? can i one day find one that will cry so i can drink the tears from her eyes? i dont think its possible. the funny thing is that i like to stay optimistic. but i am a realist...maybe my expectations are too high. has my soul been scared to deep to let anything except melodies and notes in? i think so. i got a lot of work to do people. i love all of you but i hate what you call "love". its deceiving and heartbreaking. i wish the opportunities would show themselves more. why has her "love" caused depression? why is depression driving me to find more when "love" it self is what got me here? notice the quotation marks. love and "love" are two completely different things. still cant tell the difference though. weakness #1.

the cool

just a lupe line i like.

Her eyes glow green with the logo of our dreams The purpose of our scene, The obscene obsession for the bling She would be my queen, I could be her king Together, she would make me cool and we would both rule, forever, And I would never feel pain and never be without pleasure, ever, again And if the rain stops, And everything's dry she would cry Just so I can drink the tears from her eyes She'll teach me how to fly Even cushion my fall If my engines ever stall and I plummet from the sky But she will keep me high And if I ever die She would comission my image on her bosom To hum Or maybe she'd retire as well A match made in Heaven set the fires in Hell...

Hopefully my future wife will someday let me say this as my vows. lol

success

what is success all about? is it money? is it a family? why is it that if we dont achieve those things then we are considered successful? ive had a successful business with plenty of money coming in and still not satisfied. life was better when i was poor. its hard to prove to my parents or mentors that i dont want the riches the world has to offer. they say they see it in me. is it ok if i just want enough money to support my hobbies. i think success, just like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. so please people just do what makes you happy. pic your own future. will you do me a favor? if u know me keep me in track. thanks people. you guys rock.

tattoos

i hate it when people ask me what my tattoos mean or symbolize. like if they dont mean anything then im vain or something...idk. i feel like just saying, "they mean im cooler than you for having one."
to me tattoos are art and my skin is the canvas. what does the mona lisa or the nude maja mean? can we just appreciate it?